Author Archives: Carrie Wilson

So for the past few months I have been going to CBT.. yes finally actually dealing with some deep crap. Painful stuff I had packed so deep I had utterly forgotten about. Therapy is a private affair, and I have spoken about things in that room that I have not uttered to anyone else.. soContinueContinue reading “Dear Wigglesworth – A letter to heal my inner self and child”

Have you ever wondered if our mind remembered dates and events without us realising, and making us feel a certain way.. And we just can’t figure out why we might feel so crap or happy.  I have been feeling very tired and exhausted the last couple of days, then today I used an app calledContinueContinue reading “How much does to mind remember?”

No one ever told me that throughout life you will question your identity, that life is full of transitions.. and just because you have made one or two major transitions, does not mean that you are going to ‘be’ that person for the rest of your life. Looking at it written on paper, it seems quiteContinueContinue reading “Identity – Where am I, Who am I? – Transitioning again..”

Please excuse typos and spelling mistakes I have yet to proof read on my laptop! “This morning I feel… Jittery, tired, sick, I need more sleep, can’t think straight, I’m falling asleep in my chair, glad I don’t have to talk to anyone not involved in last night before I go home and sort myselfContinueContinue reading “A night out in the town”

I start this blog feeling very low, very numb and on edge of breaking down completely.  Words of explanation just don’t want to come out, I feel muted and stuck… I have pushed myself to far for too long and my head and heart have pulled the emergency stop button, leaving me feeling stuck andContinueContinue reading “A step too far – pushed too long?”

So I am sure you have noticed that I have not posted in a long time.. And for that I am sorry. It has been a case of giving my time and energy to fighting to get my family the right services to help get them better. For anyone who has tried to access mentalContinueContinue reading “Mental Health – A battle to feel okay (where are the services?)”

I wrote this blog a couple of weeks ago.. sorry for the late post!! PWow! So I have finally reached the age of a 1/4 of a century! 25 years old :)))  (Very happy btw :)))!!) So lets rewind a year! Last year, my birthday had been unregistered by my mother, which has always madeContinueContinue reading “25 and happy…”

So this time last year…. I was blogging about attending the Buttle Conference  I was starting to feel settled in my role at Sheffield Hallam University  I was staring to feel more confident about my abilities and myself  I was parenting my younger brother and he was starting his 4 school in 2 years dueContinueContinue reading “One Year”

Its happened again, I have neglected my writing, because again I am struggling to put pen to paper, and cannot decide ‘what’ to write. I suppose there is SO much going on at the moment it would be hard to pin point on just one thing? So I will pick the main thing and goContinueContinue reading “Why can I not write?”

I sit with a mask on my face,The mask plays my role,My role is played through my mask,Am I anything without it? I am more than a smile,I am more than the body in front of you. My truth gives me pain,My mask hides the pain…. My mask is pulled from my face,I am facedContinueContinue reading “Mask”